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trying to go on
except
without you
there’s nowhere
I want to go
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Author Archives: haiku djean
winter sounds
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winter sounds
midnight rain
tapping on the roof
.
late winter
.
late winter . . .
the sound of midnight rain
tapping on the roof
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late winter . . .
midnight rain
tapping on the roof
.
almost my birthday
.
almost my birthday
almost two years
you’ve been gone —
my only wish
is
to touch you again
.
thunderstorms
.
thunderstorms
a flash of lightning —
there is only loneliness
without you
.
cooking with grandma
.
cooking with grandma
dirty dishes sink
under soapy bubbles
.
worried all night
.
worried all night
until you woke
did the nebulizer breathe
or you?
.
you will mourn
.
you will mourn
so many things —
baby, use all
the paper towels
you want
. (edited from haibunku)
golden moonbeams
.
golden moonbeams
soft through the windowpanes
bring memories
of
your touch
.
frozen winter days
.
frozen winter days
even the sun trapped
in heavy fog
.
lonely winter days
.
lonely winter days
even the sun
trapped in heavy fog
.
icy winter days
.
icy winter days
the lawn crunched
beneath our feet
.
the softest wool
.
(from haibunku, dreams)
·
the softest wool
my face
against your chest
you
holding me again
.
icy winter days
.
icy winter days
frozen fingers
frozen soul
my life
without you
.
hardest call I ever made
.
hardest call I ever made
— even frozen —
the mortuary
.
my new best friend
.
my new best friend —
until I willed my IRA funds
to my son-in-law
.
double rainbows
.
memories . . .
–
double rainbows
hug our fence —
there is no love
greater than ours
.
fireworks
.
fireworks
8pm to 2am
2021
just another day
another year
without you
.
without you
.
without you
I’m living in a whirlwind
nowhere to grasp
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golden setting sun
.
golden setting sun
evening colors
woven
through the trees
.
holidays cycle again
.
holidays cycle again
but there will never be joy
without you
.
fallen leaves of autumn
.
fallen leaves of autumn
scattered on muddy streets —
my life
without you
.
I cry every day
.
I cry every day
how could you leave me?
but I know
you had to go
–
there was only pain
that drugs couldn’t touch
and wounds
that wouldn’t heal
–
yet there is no way to say
how nuch i need you
every minute
of every day
.
round and round
.
round and round
circles on circles
kitty
gets ready
for a nap
.
rainstorm past
.
rainstorm past
neighborhood squirrel
shakes raindrops
off its fur
.
mom’s memories
.
mom’s memories —
overflowing
bathtub
suds —
dirty little kids
with
eggbeaters
.
surprise property tax bill
.
surprise property tax bill —
hidden homeowner’s cost
i’ve paid all along
*
(These taxes were always hidden in
homeowner’s loans that are now paid off.)
.
mom’s mouth is dry
.
mom’s mouth is dry
needs a glass of water — says
she’s talked too much today!
.
waiting on hold
.
waiting on hold . . .
mom found a toothpick
she needed to put away!
.
the IHOP in heaven
.
to dad and my love —
the IHOP in heaven?
make reservations
but don’t pour the coffee yet!
we don’t know the dates
but mom and I will meet you there
🙂
.
another Sunday
.
another Sunday
another day
all empty
without you
.
days of fear
.
days of fear
lost without you
still breathing
forest fire smoke
.
our forever souls
.
our forever souls —
aching for you
until we’re together again
.
fading shades of green
.
fading shades of green
leaves melt together
as evening
settles in
.
like a caged bird
.
like a caged bird
I’ve forgotten how to sing
only grief
without you
.
living in thunder
.
living in thunder
lightening, rain, dark clouds
there is no sunlight
without you
.
wrapped in grey clouds
.
wrapped in grey clouds
air smelling like storms
fireflies
sparkle the night
.
forever soulmates
.
forever soulmates
another endless day
waiting
to be with you again
.
as evening approaches
.
as evening approaches
thoughts of rain puddle
lingering light
.
I am so lost without you
.
I am so lost without you
even my haiku
struggles for words
.
alceon ku 